† Love that never fails.

Youu doubt, when the truth was said.

So what's th point in telling youu th truth..?
Youu doubt, and insisted that youu are right.
Learn to trust.
And for all your actions.
Do some reflections about it.

STOP TIME PLEASE!

i need more time!
time is not enough.
if i had th ability to stop time.

Mountains of Homework.

if th sign would come true..
homeworks are piling up,
higher and higher each day..
i have to buck up or i will lag behind..

Cannot Make It.

totally cant cope with my subjects,
even though like there's only 7.
but sec3 life is so different.
i dunno why.

there is so much things i have to buck up on.
and really need to spend time studying.
if not im going to fail my subjects again.
no, im not letting that happen.

i need your strength Lord.
help me Lord.
for without youu,
im simply nothing.

-

skipskip.
go to this web and,
watch this.
http://www.fatburningfurnace.com/index.php?hop=watertt&pid=203&g=1037585...

see if youu can watch th whole presentation.
and i mean whole.
i shall not say how long it is.
i would say youu are a pro if youu can. :]]

tell me your feelings after youu have watched it.
xD

You hold me now. :]]

Love, Care, Attention..?

am i really seeking this..?
love, care and attention.
do i really need them in my life..?
God, help me please.

Belief - Decision - Outcome
wrong belief,
made me have th wrong decision,
and in th end, of cause,
th wrong outcome.
th outcome i didnt yearn for.

honestly i didnt mean any harm.
i just wanted to be your friend.
but i destroyed everything.
i gave youu trouble instead.
i was disturbing youu in your life.
im sorry.
sorry that i was defeating your purpose.
i didnt want this to happen.

i really shouldnt do things my own way.
instead i should do things according to God's will.
my own way doesnt lead me to anywhere.
but to an outcome which sucks.
but God, will lead me somewhere.
where i will have my desired outcome.

learnt my lesson.
seriously it hurts.
must i get hurt before know what im doing is wrong.
arent there other ways..?
instead of hurting me.
i really didnt know things would turn out this way.

just a small thinking,
wrong belief,
and everything is just,
gone.
no longer now,
i know how to face youu.
youu will forever be someone i dont know,
and someone i will never know.

i didnt know,
a small thing i gave,
could result in this huge consequence.
i meant no harm.
how could i know youu then..?
perhaps everything was wrong right from th start.

but God, let me overcome this.
its scary. really scary.
and im afraid.
and i dont want this to affect my relationship with youu.
cause when these things happen.
i choose to run away and not face it.
and i blame youu for it.

but i pray God,
i will not do that.
cause i know,
youu are always by my side,
there for me.
and youu have a plan for me in my life.
i just have to wait patiently.
but i just couldnt wait.

teach my how Lord.
without youu im nothing.
and indeed.
doing things my way,
totally wrecked everything.
lead me on Lord.
for i have no one else but youu.

i dont want.
i never want th same outcome to ever happen,
again in my life.
no.
God, lead me.
and change my belief system.
which lead to a better decision,
and the desired outcome that i would want.

th new year just started,
and once again,
i made a mistake.
when will i stop making mistakes..?

-You're th reason for th teardrops on my guitar..

Thankyouu xiaoqi and doris too. <3

i should also give credits to my two awesome sisters.
who have been by my side.
during my ups and downs.
they made me hang on and overcome all obstacles.

Xiaoqi:

im really sorry for all that i have done to youu.
whenever my life isnt right with God,
i just simply 'throw' youu aside and ignore your pressence.
youu talked to me alot of times.
i was th one who asked youu to help me in my life with God,
but i was also th who, who rejected your help.
what was i thinking at that time..?

i really dunno.
i regretted all i have done to youu.
i simply be with youu everytime my life is good.
and dump youu whenever i feel that i dun need youu at all.
im sorry.
what kind of friend was i at that time..?

youu were always there for me.
supporting me.
telling me not to give up.
and constanly reminding me of my purpose in life.
that is to live for God.
but instead of listening to youu.
i hated youu.

i said alot of nasty things to youu.
i just didnt want youu to bother my life.
youu were hurt and discouraged by me,
i know.
im really sorry. i was blinded so deeply.
forgive me alrights..?

i have changed and youu know it.
must believe in me once again ok..?
i promise youu,
i wun let th same things happen again.
accountability.
i really hope that when youu have problems,
youu can come tell me like i always do.

i will be there for youu just like how,
youu were there for me.
thankyouu so much
for all th things youu have done for me.
iiloveeyouu Xiaoqi!

Doris:

thank God that youu could even have me
as your disciple during masterlife.
all th things that youu have taught me.
thankyouu so much.

sorry for hiding so many things from youu.
cause i really couldnt bring myself to tell youu.
i dunno why.
but now, i wun.
we 3, xiaoqi, me, and youu.
we all stand firm together and bring glory to God.

i believe i hurt youu in a way or another,
and discouraged youu by all th things that i have done.
i apologise for that.
sorry for all th wrong things i have done.
regretted my wrongdoings.

falling into temptations of th worldly desires.
that is th old me.
and im new now.
and i believe youu can tell right..?

youu also stood by me,
encouraging me and pushing me on.
thankyouu.
all th things youu have done,
i will never forget.
iiloveeyouu Doris!

Thankyouu God for all your faithful people.
giving me encouragement constanly and,
motivating me to push on.
they have impacted my life.
and i will never forget about what they have done.

they changed me to a better person,
and God, thankyouu for being by my side always.
and i thankyouu for where i am today.
God, iiloveeyouu and i really mean it.

SVV, iiloveeyouu!

For God so loved th world,
that he sent his son Jesus to die on th cross for us.
Know th truth, and th truth shall set youu free.

-

Looking back to all th things that i have done in 2009.
there's only one word to describe it.
wasted.

i wasted my sec2 life so much.
when i could have done so much things for God.
God has done so much in my life.
and this is how i treat him back..?

i totally regretted what i have done.
th things i have done and drifted away from Him so much.
than to be closer to him.
he kept calling my name,
but i chose, to ignore his pressence.

what have i done.

SisterVivian :

im really very sorry for all th things that i have done.
and i didnt know that it could affect youu so much.
cried when youu were on stage sharing your story.
i didnt place myself into your position.
its all my fault, im sorry.
i wanna thankyouu,

for even coming to talk to me each time.
when my life with God wasn't right.
making me come back to my senses.
i was so stupid.
doing th worldly things, being blinded.
youu took good care of me.
and helped me in my spiritual growth with God.
thankyouu so much.

even though youu might not see this.
but i wanna say to youu.
that i really love youu alot.
for all th things youu have done for me.
i appreciate it.
if it weren't for youu,
i might not be where i am today.
thankyouu, thankyouu so much SisterVivian.

i wanna thank God here today,
for removing my fear during sharing on saturday. :]]
cause, i really really dread sharing.
i shared to my group + dorcas's group.
thanksgiving.
all th things that God, i want to thankyouu for.

God youu have wrecked me totally in my life.
i have changed.
God, im living for youu totally.
everything i do, i wanna bring glory to youu.

Serving God.

Spiritual Gifts	Strength
Evangelism	7
Prophecy	2
Teaching	3
Exhortation	4
Pastor/Shepherd	3
Showing Mercy	6
Serving	2
Giving	5
Administration	3

Spiritual Gifts Analysis Results
[14-07-2009]

i enjoy writting encouragement cards and encouraging others,
it makes me feel encouraged when they are encouraged.
writting verses that are encouraging to them.
build up their faith.

i like to tell people about Jesus,
how awesome he is.
how he changed my life.
just that i dun really dare to,
i lack courage.
and i dun really know where to start, how to end.

i dread sharing, i dunno why.
if in a small group, like 3 people,
i dare to share if we are very close sisters/brothers in Christ.
as th number increases, there is this fear in me.
especially when your leader is there listening to you.

i dun dare to share my own testimony in front of everybody.
in a small group perhaps still ok.
i dunno why.
this fear in me.
im afraid when everyone stares at me, listen to wad i say attentively.
like, i will say wrong, invalid. all those things.

which gift am i working towards to,
which gift should i work towards to.

which gift i like doing,
which gift i excel in doing.

giving God th most glory.

working towards th vision God had given me during YI camp.
and im sure it will come to a past.
God, speak to me more than ever!
let me understand th vision and see it clearer.
tell me what to do.
and let your will be done.

MERRY CHRISTMAS JESUS! <3